Six Black Fishes Please
/Six Black Fishes Please is out! You’ll find it anywhere that you listen to music online.
I play guitar, electric bass, and sing. Mike Bullock plays contrabass on two songs, my son Tilden drums on three, and my daughter Ida even makes a brief appearance on piano! I feel compelled to tell you, as is always the case, that if you listen on headphones (good ones, NOT earbuds) it will sound best, and if you listen closely, know that everything, every little sound and scrape and voice off in the distance, is there intentionally. I pay such deep attention and I work so hard; every sound is just where it should be. As a matter of fact, I probably take away more than I leave in the end.
I recorded everything at home a fact that I’m proud of, and while it doesn’t sound like it came out of a professional studio, it sounds pretty darn good considering. Of course, I had immense help from Andrew Oedel: in drum recording advice, and he mixed everything. 6BFP was mastered by Harris Newman at Grey Market Mastering. I did the art. Speaking of which, I also painted the singers of the four originals, a wrote briefly about each if you feel curious…
And I made a video for one of the songs, wherein I attempted to play with/subvert the trend of YouTube stars lip-syncing to their super professional, glossy, studio recordings, as they attempt to convince us that it’s all live. It’s troubling to me, this obfuscation.
Six Feet Under
It began simply. I was teaching a music class, and gave my students the assignment to record a cover of a song that they do not like. I felt like I should join them to better discuss process. I had little time, and as my daughter was a fan of Billie Elisih, she was the first who came to mind.
I’m not sure how I decided on Six Feet Under, but if memory serves, I was limited to about an hour and a half, so I chose quickly. It sounded easy, and I felt like I could do something interesting with it. The problem was lyrics; in the end, I felt a little absurd, though not completely.
I figured out the chords, printed the words, and set to work. I tracked everything on first takes, including the voice, in my allotted time on a Sunday night. It gets a little weird (Confused?) here and there, but that’s okay; recorded music is much like photography. I work and work and work, day in and day out, and all of that has to funnel itself into the practiced ability to capture something meaningful in a few hours time. Sometimes, my favourite photos are a bit blurry. What you may not know, is that every single thing you hear (best on good headphones) is there intentionally. Everything. We can do it over and over again, we can make sure that everything is ‘perfect,’ and yet most of the time, something is lost when we do so.
In class the next day, none of them seemed to like my cover at all, which struck me as being a good sign. I initially had no intention of releasing this, but with The Bellows forthcoming, I was being encouraged to generate more ‘content’ as means of self-promotion. The only thing I could think of that wouldn’t break my spirit entirely, was to film myself playing some songs live in my shop. The trouble was, that nearly all of the songs on The Bellows were too difficult for me to play and sing simultaneously. So I thought, “well, maybe I’ll learn some covers of songs that I DO like, and film those.” And there you have it. Somehow, amidst the insufferable mess of trying (mostly in vain) to promote The Bellows, I found the energy to record four cover songs…
Jet Black
It is difficult for me to explain how much the band Jawbreaker meant to me. I saw them at Gilman St. for the first time when I was sixteen, and they became my favourite band overnight. I honestly feel, these many years later, that they are the most underrated band in the history of American Rock and Roll. Aside from the wonderful playing, songwriting, lyrics, tones, etc., they were one of those live bands with an energy and an aura (there is no better word) that was spiritual. Those were, without question, some of the best live shows I have ever seen in my life, rivalled only by Radiohead, Fugazi, and Sigur Ros.
Covering a Jawbreaker song is something that I’ve considered for many years, but shied away as I wasn’t sure that I could both honour their work and make it any own. Something about doing this at home, somewhat ‘lo-fi’ made it feel right. Then of course, I had to pick a song. I won’t list all of the others that came close, nor will I say that I picked this as my favourite. I just picked this one, that’s enough.
I felt bad that many of their early fans abandoned them with Dear You, which seemed to me so lacking in understanding and so terribly judgemental and well…just sad. I was not one of them. I bought Dear You on blue vinyl the day it came out, and listened to it as much as I ever have any record. I wrote a few letters back and forth with the band in the late 80’s early 90’s (I’ve always been a letter writer) and I recall chatting with Blake after a show about the possibility of doing my college thesis (American Studies) on them as part of a larger piece about the San Francisco Bay Area punk rock scene. I ended up writing about “oppression and ‘race relations’” instead, at the behest of my advisor. In hindsight, I should have fought for the music. I play guitar, bass, and sing on this one, my son on the drum kit. I extend a deep bow and thanks to Jawbreaker for all of it.
With Fishes
Christian, oh Christian…how I love and miss thee. Christian Kiefer is my favourite songwriter. Period. It sounds lame/cliche, but his music has moved my heart more than any I have ever heard in my life. I cannot count the number of times that I have expressed to my my wife, how truly bewildered I am that he is not known all over the world. I guess it doesn’t matter. I am just so thankful for his work, and that the unknowable forces out there brought us together.
We shared a bill, sometime back in the nineties, at a little cafe in Sacramento, California, called Luna’s. We swapped numbers and spent several hours on the phone beginning a lifelong friendship the next day. We played countless shows together over the years, and Christian leant a hand, an ear, and hours in his little home studio helping with my work. We played on each other’s records, made two LP’s together, and dove headlong into presidential history with our three cd box set, Of Great and Mortal Men (available only at Bandcamp and Qobuzz due to some licensing nonsense.) And then we both fell into a deep, dark pit of obscurity. There is a much longer story here that involves Kill Rock Stars and Nonesuch Records and the unrealistic touring demands placed musicians with families, but I don’t feel like getting up on my soapbox. If the music industry was more reasonable, there would be a good deal more music from Christian and I, and that fact makes me a bit sad.
I recall well, driving home from a gig with my band (Above the Orange Trees) sometime around 2001, hearing his half of our split LP for the first time, in the car. It was a warm summer night, dry valley heat wafting in through the windows. As I heard Kiefer’s spare, sad songs, I was floored. When he reached With Fishes, the second to last piece, it absolutely took my breath away. It was so achingly pure and honest and raw, completely without pretence. It brought something within me to my knees. I have long been humbled and inspired by his work, and this old song remains one of my favourite pieces of music. There is some strange, cosmic magic at play that I recorded this now, with my son on the drum kit. I had no son, that summer night. I told Kiefer last week, that were it not for his music, I don’t know if I’d have continued making mine. What more could one ask for, than to have one’s heart opened so completely?
Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want.
Seventh Grade. I can picture myself standing in the record store, holding The Queen is Dead, freshly released, in my hands. My mother would bribe me to go shopping with her at some godawful mall, by taking me to the record store afterward. I would walk around Mervyn’s in a daze, buzzing slightly with the promise of finding some new music.
I haven’t the slightest idea why; perhaps it was simply the cover art and the fact that it was British. Maybe it was shelved next to The Replacements in ‘new releases.’ Had I heard them on the radio? I have no siblings, and none of my friends at that time were listening to the music that interested me. It was at a birthday party earlier that year, while all of the other kids hung out downstairs eating pretzels and candy, playing spin the bottle, while I stood upstairs alone with the DJ, listening to his collection. I was simply transfixed. A portal opened that night, into a world that I have never left. Aside from the people whom I love, music has been the absolute centre of my life.
I called my dad the next day at work, and asked if he could stop by the record store and get me The Sex Pistols, The Circle Jerks, and The Toy Dolls. What a good sport he was. And thus began my life of listening. Up until that point, everything had been someone else’s music, but this was mine.
That day buying my first Smith’s record, came a few months after the DJ, and I was just floored by it. It was then, and remains now, one of the greatest records I’ve heard, and the song Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want, is simply perfect. Like Jawbreaker, it was difficult to decide; I began a version of I Won’t Share You, but it was slippery. This one came together quickly. I was struggling to keep track of the guitar part without singing simultaneously, so if you listen closely you can hear my whispering. I have spent decades trying to become a better singer, and the fact that I feel content with my voice on this, is a feather in my cap, one that I have been chasing for a very, very long time. Has there ever been a better band?
As always, thanks for reading and listening. Spring is imminent.

